Honestly, it all seems so simple you just don’t stop at the store, you just don’t worry about where you are going to be able to drink or get more. It really is not that hard. It can be as easy as knowing the fact I would not drink bleach or rat poison. So why am I making such a big deal about buying and drinking alcohol when I know it is one simple choice to say no?
It really is a simple choice to say no, not today. Really, it is that simple but yet so hard. I know it is addictive and that is part of the reason it is so hard to say no. But if we look at like any other bad choices, like not dating a guy we know is bad for us, or choosing friends that make good choices, it should be so simple.
We look at the weather before we walk out the door to know which coat to where shoes to wear, and we know not to walk alone in the dark in a strange neighborhood. So why is it so hard to just not buy or drink alcohol?
Addiction is a nasty, dark beast that makes us all do the worst things and make bad choices. We know this as we suffer through the hang overs, off-the-chart anxiety and overwhelming, crippling shame.
So, how do we stop, stopping at the store or buying alcohol? We make plans, try new routes home, stop going to events or keeping patterns of activity that trigger drinking or the thought of drinking. We play the tape all the way through and visualize the bad, ugly and chaos that ensues once we start and can’t stop.
It works if we just make one simple choice to stop. Change it up and more importantly find support. I can’t say I have all the answers but I know by putting these words down I making the choice to move in the right direction and can help support you too.
Congratulations on embarking on your alcohol free journey. I have enjoyed readying your posts and they are resonating with me. I am on Day 26 of my own AF journey. Stay strong and keep writing.