No Cool-aid Here!
Fake It To You Make It
Fake it to you make it was a saying my old boss used to say and it always made me chuckle. The saying was always referring to work and used when we did not know something or total understand something new or different. We were both obviously very smart people but there were the times …
The Art of Stop, Not Stopping
It is funny to me, but not in a funny haha way, why trying to stop drinking is and has been so hard. I understand the addict part of it and the fact it is a diversion mechanism but still why is it so hard. I guess the saying is true old habits die hard. …
And Then I Woke Up
Not sure my title here will support all my thoughts for this posting but here it goes. I woke up after another night of fitful sleep due to drinking and determined I needed to stop drinking and start diving into many of the current problems in my life that were making me drink. Reasons for …
Back in Black
Then fast forward to a few years ago my husband and I were having a lot of parties at our house, kids swimming and adults have fun but then my husband would talk about something someone said, or a conversation from the night before, and I would have to fake the fact that I remembered …
The Struggle Is Real And The Time Is Right
Getting off the hamster wheel can be hard, tricky and a general pain in the ass. The level of frustration, shame and general disgust of my lack of self control. I know better, I am better, and I am sensing others are catching on to my behaviors. This frightens me and I am afraid I …
It Is Just One Simple Choice
Honestly, it all seems so simple you just don’t stop at the store, you just don’t worry about where you are going to be able to drink or get more. It really is not that hard. It can be as easy as knowing the fact I would not drink bleach or rat poison. So why …
Famous Last Words
How many times have I said the words, “I am not going to drink tonight!” OR “I am not going to stop at the store on the way home tonight.” Then my all time favorite, “I am not drunk!” Of course I was drunk 90% of the time when I would say that in response …
Goodbye Old Friend
We all have had that great girl friend, you know the one you spend all your time with. The one you laugh harder around. The one you tell everything and know it goes to the grave with her. That great girl friend who has been with you through thick and thin. No matter the good, …
In A Nut Shell
No Cool-aid Here Allow me to introduce myself. I am a friend to many, daughter, mother, professional, wife. I used to be person with very questionable drinking behaviors. In other words a lush, a person who could not stop drinking, manic and most often bat shit crazy. My life became crushingly small and I began …
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